am sitting here in the cold. shivering...
had a sudden urge to reread some old messages. 89 threads or thereabouts of exchanges...and i'm just 3/4 done. it's ironic how time can change so many things in life; and i'm specifically speaking of my emotions, and the things that cross my mind while reading the same piece of message now and then. those heart-wrenching moments are now replaced by mere acknowledgement that it's all history. flashbacks of mostly good memories come flooding back like an old film flashing before my eyes. and i nod back at them like old friends. it was a past that had broken me into pieces once, (i vaguely remember those ugly moments; and am definitely not digging further into the pit of my memory for them) but of course i've grown from it. i wont say i'm thankful but i'm certainly glad for the memories that i'll bring along down this road.
now, being back in a somewhat similar situation, and with a clearer mind at this moment, i'd call it a cliche - sad i am but none the less wiser.
it'll soon be over and then, i'll look back and smile at it like an old friend who dropped by to teach me a lesson.
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it must be human nature to be curious.
how else would you know if it was a box of chocolate or a pandora's box if you didn't try to take a peek.
